Welcome - A Place to "Un-Vent".

The purpose of this blog is to jot down all of life's blissful moments - happy thoughts, passions, inspirations, why your day went swell, things to be grateful for, random things that just make you feel justified, satisfied, confident...just darn great!

Monday, August 31, 2009

"You Make It Real"

Heard this on a random commercial. Just listened to it now. How sweet! This is exactly the kinda love stuff I was talkin about earlier! <3

James Morrison - "You Make It Real"

So much craziness surrounding me

So much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure about my priorities
When I've lost site of where I'm meant to be
Like holy water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you, baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words
You teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me, yeah

And I'm running to you, baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
You're shining in the distance, I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you, baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
Yes, you do, you make it real for me

Friday, August 28, 2009

Ode to Peach

Ok. So, I'm not actually going to write a lyrical poem for my sister, but I figured I'd dedicate this entry to her (eventhough YOU NEVER read my blogs!).

Anway...

Little Sister...Peanut Head. Little Boo. Butt Munch. Booty Crack. Chub chub. Cream puff.

Honestly, I would not have my sanity today if it weren't for you!

As much as we fight, there is no one on this entire planet who knows me better than you. And I'm so lucky to have a sister like you because you've got such a big heart for such a little person. (5 feet to be precise).

Why you rock my socks:

1) You are athletic -- like me. Bwahaha. You're so tiny, but you kicked butt playing varsity volleyball AND basketball through high school. Who the hell does that at 5 feet? Only you, boo boo!

2) You are very responsible -- for only 19, you take care of the family like no other. You take care of all 4 of our big dogs. And you're the glue that holds everyone together...

3) You are the best listener in the world. You know how half the time I'm not listening to you when you're talking because I'm on the internet chatting, emailing, or have my mind pre-occupied? You seem to always listen! And not just..like..partially listening. But COMPLETELY. Your patience and level of understanding is beyond amazing. Whenever I'm sad...or need to cry, I feel like I can always call you. You're always there for me..no matter how far you are...you always pick up the phone and return my text messages. I truly appreciate that.

4) You're weird. I love you're genuine weirdness and dorkiness. It makes me feel comfortable being around you.

5) You are very giving.

6) I like hanging out with you -- go figure! My favorite things we do together include: eating, shopping, watching chick flicks, complaining about the family, driving home together, and talking about our guys. =P.

Yea. So, there ya go. In writing...just a few reasons...as to why I am so grateful for you..

<3

Sunday, August 23, 2009

"Live to Love".

I have a lot of love to give.

And no matter how many times I've fallen in and out of love, I think I'll always have the propensity to do so again.

Why?

Because no matter what you do, or who you're do it with, or where you are on this planet, I believe...that the feeling of caring about someone and having that person care about you with equal or greater magnitude in return is...the greatest passion to experience.

And when I think about the past, the future, and the present I realize...that...this feeling isn't about how much or how little one has in common with the other...but more about...that connection. The desire to care. The desire to truly share ones life with another.

And the reassurance that you are going to care about the things I do...non-unconditionally. The accomplishments. The failures. And that I will care about yours. And we will grow from it.

And that I'm not alone.

And that YOU will never alone now that you have me.

I think everyone is capable of love. And I think everyone has the ability to care. But whether or not someone is ready for this intensity...is another story. They were right when they said, "You can't love someone, until you love yourself."

I think...I have a lot of love to share becauseI have the ability to...care...a lot...

Perhaps it is that simple.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Self-Confidence.

"Trust yourself. Have confidence in your abilities."

"Stop comparing yourself to others. You'll never feel like you measure up if you're constantly picking yourself apart. There will always be someone with a bigger, better whatever. The sum total of who you are is what makes you special."

"Respect yourself."

"Focus on what is, and not what could be. "

"Thrive on the present. Fore go the hypothetical."

"Give it your all."

"Be positive." =)

And finally...the biggie that should boost it all:

"JUST DO IT!" Then don't regret anything and realize that everything you've simply done has been added to your book of life lessons and accomplishments.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

2:50am Thoughts

Still up working on some market research for part-time job. Just finished.

Now to reflect on some wishful thinking:

If I had all the money in the world right now...I would...
  • Make sure that my parents retired comfortably.
  • Take all of my favorite people to celebrate and and eat at their favorite places.
  • Pay back all of my loans.
  • Take motorcycle lessons and buy a sexy Ninja 250.
  • Open my own gym.
  • Hire all of my friends and make sure that they were all employed with full benefits.
  • Travel. To everywhere.
  • Buy health insurance.
  • Move NorCal and SoCal closer together.
  • Move to my own place, decorate it with a bunch of really neat IKEA stuff, and buy a bigger bed.
But alas...I'm not as financially affluent as I'd hope to be.

So, how about we settle for the highlights of my week thus far:
  • Home-made crab cakes and making food look pretty.
  • Meditating at the Thai temple.
  • Spending one-on-one time with my little sister.
  • Running one mile and not having my knee hurt.
  • Hearing how awesome Cal-Nev-Ha Circle K rocked at International (as always).
  • Discovering delicious falafels for good deasl in Bezerkeley.
  • Unplanned rendezvous
  • Free wi-fii.
  • Birthday cakes.
  • Multivitamins.
  • Smiley familiar faces and hugs at the Kiwanis meeting.
  • Foozball.
  • Driving with the windows down, music up, and dancing in my own little world.
  • Genuinely good listeners.
  • Sleep. (Why am I still up again? Hah).
  • Food network.
  • Trader Joe's Low-Fat Granola with Almond's + Bananas + Milk
  • Peanut Butter & Jelly Clif Mojo Bars
  • Drinking quality booze at 2pm on a Sunday - in particular raspberry liquors.
  • Laying down in front of the Campanile on a bench and just absorbing the world around you.
  • Crying... And realizing that as insecure as things may be... everything ultimately will be ok as long as I keep smiling and pushing through.

Monday, August 10, 2009

"500 Days of Summer" - A Modern Day Love Story (Though it's in denial that it's not)

"I guess I just figured, why make something disposable like a building when you can make something that last forever, like a greeting card." ~ Tom from 500 Days of Summer

A guy that's infatuated about a girl? That wants to find "the one"? THAT, for starters, is one of the many things that makes this a remarkable movie.

What I loved most about this movie was the constant juxtaposition of feelings of happiness and agony in the most chaotic manner (which is JUST how life is!). The concepts of relationship "expectations" vs. "reality" were addressed -- something I...and I'm sure many people, can identify with.

Anyway...let's cut to the chase:

I like this movie a lot because it's genuinely...real: the romantic experience you share with an individual is momentary. It's only for now.

At this point, the common hopeless romantic would shout "Well...why just now?! When it can last forever!"

Well...you see...that's the beauty of this movie...is that it compels you to NOT only live for those...big "AHA!" moments...but instead to truly enjoy every experience, then to simply live and let go as needed.

So you see...the momentariness of love/relationships...is not a bad thing, as much as it may hurt. Because...even if things don't work out...you're bound to find someone just as amazing if not more amazing...or at least someone you can once again share those feelings with...in a matter of time. Just open your eyes.

All it takes is time. An open mind. The willingness to love again. "...To love as if you have never been hurt before." Resilience.

And the important thing to remember is that...THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING just because your person of infatuation is no longer there.

*nod*

The second concept I enjoyed that was addressed in this movie is the oh so popular question of... "What is Love?"

Answer: It's simply indescribable.

Tom: "What happens when you fall in love?"
Summer: "You believe in that stuff?"
Tom: "It's love...it's not Santa Claus."

It just...BAM! hits you when you least expect it. You can feel as comfortable as you may with someone and spend every single day with them...but...when you feel it...you FEEL it. And you can't do anything about it. (Just like how Tom felt for Summer, and as Summer felt for the guy she ended up marrying).

It's just...a feeling of intense passion for someone.

To feel such great intensity towards someone...

That energy to care for someone whether they are "the one" or not...it's a beautiful thing that I truly admire.

...

Gosh. What a great movie.

Been thinking about it for the last many hours now.

Ah, just got watch it already! :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Knee Pain

My knee has been hurting in waves since the marathon. (It came about a few days after the marathon).

The pain started in my right foot (it hurt to walk) and now the pain is definitely in the right knee. It hurts when I walk up stairs. And it hurts mostly when I walk down stairs. Extending my knee hurts. It goes away sometimes momentarily (like after I sleep), but then the pain comes back at by the end of the day. Sharp, pinched pain around my right knee. (The internet says it could be Iliotibial Band Syndrome or..."Runner's Knee").

It's been hurting since last Thursday. It's been 6 days and the pain hasn't subsided.

Why am I posting this on my "inspiration" blog? For three reasons:

1) BE GRATEFUL FOR YOUR BODY and WORK IT OUT. Please please please please for those of you who don't work out as much as you should...if you are not injured, PLEASE exercise. My knee has prevented me from running or doing any type of real cardio in the last 6 days and OMG...my body is craving exercise like no other. I NEED to sweat!

Please exercise if you don't have any legitimate injuries! Be good to your bodies!

2) There are other people out there in this world who have greater injuries, who still are able to stay fit and workout -- I need to keep this in mind and not let my knee get in the way of staying fit...must find other ways. Must must must! Will will will!!!!

3) Doctor. Health Insurance. This knee pain is a sign -- inspiration to get health insurance!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please pain -- go away, so I can resume my normal activities as usual.

Thank you!