Happy Thanksgiving!

I am thankful for my stomach that is able to digest everything that I put in it so very well, which allows me to enjoy food over and over again the next day and the next...annnnd the next.

Aside from that, personal shot outs for some of my favorite people who have kept me happy these last few weeks:

Cajita: LOL. You make me laugh. We're chatting right now, and you do. You and your brute honesty.

Raymundo: For your truly random texts at random times throughout the week, vent sessions, and constant cravings for George's Greek.

Danielle: For your wake-up texts, quirky emails, and gushy lovey-dovey self.

Jess: Because no matter how long it's been since the last time we've talked, you ALWAYS understand!

Leslie: Because you've always got my back, are so protective of my heart, and are always there for a good drinking session.

Helen: For being my emotional/relationship counselor and getting me excited about future "festivities".

Mak: Because even though you always say "get outta here!", you still let me back into your house and feed me with great food and music.

Bento: For being my #1 International Fan and always excited to get the latest news fresh off the press! You make me feel like my life is actually exciting! LOL.

Jenny: For always being so sweet, genuinely you, and such a great listener!

Peter Y: For always being so honest. And so funny while you're at it! You always make light of serious things. It works. Haha.

Joe Lee: For always smelling good. :)

Maddie: For making the funniest faces and screaming with Helen on the road to keep the drive up to Seattle that much more entertaining.

Alan: For being online and finally getting text.

May: Because you still inspire me after all these years.

Bo: Because you'd let me visit you in Chicago given any time or day. You're my run-t0 cousin.

Peach: Because well, duh, you're my sister and you're a pretty damn good one!

AND FINALLY...

Quote of the day (which I heard from the radio):

"Happiness is having something to look forward to."

And I look forward to talking and seeing each of you everyday <3

Haven't Met You Yet

For the day dreamers and hopeless romantic goofballs...just "Haven't Met You Yet"!

By Michael Buble

What I love most about this song is that the lyrics are kinda sad and very relate-able, but the beat itself is so happy and bubbly that you're like "Ok! You're right! Not today...but one day! Until then, la la la!" :) *jazz hands*!

...

I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!

"Happy Thoughts"

I think it's time for a different approach to life.

To wake up thinking about what you DO have rather than what you DON'T have.

And so, I'm going to make more of a greater effort to wake up each morning and make a list of things -either by jotting them down or just saying them out loud to myself or something - to be grateful for, so here goes list #1:

1. My parents who continue to shelter me everyday
   
2. My mom who continues to cook the best Thai food ever.
   
3. My legs - that allow me to run.
4. A healthy body - that allows me to breathe and allow me to enjoy everything with all 5 senses to its very fullest.
5. Peach Nipitnorasate
6. The people in my life who make a good effort to keep in touch everyday no matter the distance -- you know who you are.
   
7. The internet/chat systems that allow for the above.
   
8. Latte art.
   
9. Cafes/library's.
10. My own room.
11. My own bed.
12. Autumn.
13. Good eats.
14. My aunt.
15. Music like Matt Nathanson and John Legend
16. The ability to love greatly, fall in love, and feel completely enamored over and over again.
    

And the list will continue to grow..day after day.

I wonder if there's a website/open forum where people can just go to -- to share their happiness with each other?

Happy Thursday =).

Matt Nathanson <3

Alright...so...I'm 2 years behind...but...if Matt Nathanson's "Some Mad Hope" could be embodied into one guy...I'd seriously be in love.

Gosh darn it -- is it possible to fall in love with a person through their music?! John Legend...I think you've met your match (in another realm of music!). This guy sings with a whole lotta great passion about LOVE.

I think it's safe to say that after listening to this album on repeat for the last week+, I've become a very satisfied fan! =)

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Excerpt from Matt's Bio: http://www.mattnathanson.com/about
At the core of Nathanson's music are his lyrics -- deft turns of phrase that can alternately cut deep into the heart or heal it. That's evident throughout Some Mad Hope, a song cycle of sorts that chronicles the search for a genuine connection, touching on the sensually electric moments as well as the darker frustrations of sifting through the wreckage -- in hopes of finding redemption at the end of the day.

"I definitely think of the album as capturing the arc of a relationship," says the Boston native. "It starts out on a positive note and it goes to some really dark places. But after touching bottom, there's a sense of optimism in the end. Maybe coming from a realization that two people can be a team, not just two individuals who happen to be together."

...

"In a lot of ways, the album is about learning what a relationship really can be," he says. "Some people deal with that when they're 20, some people deal with it in their thirties and some people never do. -- writing and recording these songs genuinely left me with the feeling that, 'wow, this is a real step forward for me, both as an artist and as a person.'"
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My fav's:

• "Come On Get Higher"
  
• "Still"
• "I Saw"
• "All We Are"
• "Falling Apart"
• "Car Crash"

Ah..who am I kidding? The whole album is great.

Gratitude.

I think I have taken some very important people for granted in my life, and so this entry is dedicated to the people who truly have made an effort to reach out to me when I've needed it most...even if I didn't want it.

1) Mom: You call me ALL of the time. 24/7. It bugs me. Because you make me feel like I'm still a baby. You make me feel like I've done something wrong with my life, but in my mind...I think I've come a long way and have yet to do anything tremendously horrendous that has made my life gone completely astray. The only things I've done...even if it's beyond the "norm of your traditions" are things that I feel I am passionate about or things that I feel are worth while in my life. But, Mom, I know you do it all just because you care...but sometimes, you just need to trust that I will be ok.

2) My friends who have been checking in on me to make sure that I'm still alive and doing well via a random text/IM/call here or there....you know who you are...

No matter how busy we get or how caught up we get in some other aspect of life...it's like..we never left each other. Even if it's just for a few moments or..hours...I just want you to know....I appreciate every little effort you make. It's people like you that make life worth living. It's people like you that...despite the fucked up economy, incontinency of relationships, mis-understandings of family, and all those other "down-times"...it's YOU...you crazy...honest...beautiful...genuine souls...that piece it all back together.

Alright. I'm gonna go way out on a limb and be EVEN mushier than my usual self (ha!)...but seriously...SERIOUSLY.

Each of you guys are unique in your own way...but common charateristics that I feel I truly see in you which I will always cherish from now until I die...are the following...which make you the creme...of the creme of the brulee's!:

• Genuine
• Honest
• Blunt
• Intuitively Weird/Silly/Goofy/Dorky
• Off-the-wall
• Wipe my tears away with something deep or stupid.
  
• Give-it-to-me-straight-and-tell-me-how-it-is-no-matter-how-much-it-hurts-for-my-own-good-worthy.
• There for me when I need you...even if it's just a virtual hug or kiss...

Thank you...for being so beautiful.

Please don't change.

Songs of the Month

1) "Angelina" ~ Tommy Emmanuel

2) "I Didn't Know My Own Strength" ~ Whitney Houston

3) "Smile" ~ Uncle Kracker =)

You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

#45 -- Rejection Alleviated by Comforting Words.

So, I unfortunately didn't get #45 today -- a job I seriously thought was "the one".

And because of the high expectations (though I attempted to be realistic) I found myself crying...a whole lot.

But the pain was alleviated by comforting words...

Nga: "...They are missing out!"

Peach: "It's ok, you'll find an even better job!"

Raymundo: "The perfect one is just waiting to be taken...by you!"

Helen: "Well think of it this way...how ridiculously overqualified would that other person have to be to beat YOU? right? so they're just a freak of nature. haha"

My Boss: "Well, don't give up. You never know what will come up. [Company] would be so lucky to have you full-time. As would any other company."

Thanks you guys <3 for taking the time to listen to me and wipe away my tears...virtually.

And so...the show must go on.

Not sure when...or how...but it must!

Continuing to look for something...I can believe in.