In the last few months I've come to terms with my instability.
I think we, as human beings and children of the earth, for the most part fear instability. "The greatest fear is the fear of the unknown."
Why? Because "instability" tends to have a negative connotation and we are future-dwellers.
When we are in this state we are "off balance". Things are unsure. Things are not "perfect" or "in order".
I've come to realize that this has been one of MY greatest fears: lack of order and security.
And at this point of my life...while I still have the opportunity and ability to develop myself personally and professionally, I've come to terms with my instability.
All through college until this point did I fear not finding a stable career.
All through high school until this point did I fear not finding a stable relationship...
But, you know, I consider myself lucky to have gained a whole lot more experience having worked 5 different gigs in the last year alone rather than having one full-time position: sales at 24 Hour, field marketing with Clif, promo with Marin French, computer show thanks to Helen <3, and now gladly coordinating the March for Babies with the March of Dimes. All on top of researching, networking, endless cover-letter-writing, and interviewing for a gabagillion different companies.
I've met some pretty flipping awesome people along the way, bonded with colleagues, and learned lots.
Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my education, but then I've also come to realize that the greatest things I actually took away from college were my experiences and the people I met. Though, evidently, it's great to be well-educated, too. (Duh). With that said, I would rather spend the next few years of my life career hopping doing EVERYTHING in the food industry (where I've decided my passion lies greatest): from bottom to top, left to right. I wanna be a sponge and suck it all in while I still have the physical and mental ability to do so!
And the same goes for relationships. Quite frankly, it ain't so bad being single. I've had the opportunity to meet some pretty epic people along this path, too. Experienced great love and great heartache, and have learned 10 x's more about myself and people's wants and needs than can ever imagined. I'm not saying that I don't miss having someone reliable to hold at the end of the day, but for now, the instability is quite refreshing and needed for me to develop into my very best self :). What's that line John Mayer sings? Oh yea:
And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs
That led me to a love so strong.
Yea.
Instability.
It ain't so bad. In fact, it's quite adventurous and life enriching in my opinion.
If you have the opportunity, you should try it out.
