Come What May

While driving from 24 to Clif today, it occurred to me that by next Monday I will be back to the drawing board -- plopped on my couch/some place with internet scavenging for a full-time job that I will be inspired to commit myself to.

And today, while slightly re-evaluating my future, I realized...it's been a few months since the last time I wrote "I have no idea where I will be by this time next month!", but I still feel that way.

I really have no idea where I will be or what I will be doing with myself.

It's scary, but...this is the path I have chosen for myself since the day I sat on Sproul my sophomore year and told myself "I'm not going to be a doctor." I'm not going to chose the clear-cut route just because it's "secure" and simple. (Not that I'm saying being a doctor would have been easy by no means!).

I told myself...I'm going to work my way up. Even if I have to start from the bottom.

And if I have to bounce around...then...so be it.

Am I being picky? Even in this recession? Yes I am.

But there are times...like... these last few weeks where things become obscure and I'm like...what the heck am I doing with my life? Have I attained any of my goals? Am I closer to attaining any of my goals?

Of which I need to step back and remind myself that...I'm doing everything that I WANT to do that I CAN do at the moment.

"Come what may."

I will do the best that I can.

And enjoy all of life's blissful moments along the way.